There is seriously something wrong with me that I can eat 5 small creme puffs, a pint of Ben and Jerry's, a dinner, and still be looking for more food in the same evening. That was my Tuesday night.
You may have guessed from my radio silence that the dieting has not been going so well. The exercise was doing all right, but took two weeks off for surgery and recovery. Tonight I'm determined to go for a run again -- right before surgery I was able to run 1.5 miles without stopping! That's the most I've ever run in one stretch.
I had to go out today and buy larger tops for my new job, and a larger pair of jeans. It's so humiliating to buy clothes in a size UP instead of DOWN. I've been flipping through diet plan after diet plan and just eating everything anyway. Time to just simply count calories for awhile, I think. I know weight loss is more complicated than "calories in, calories out," but I can't get control over my binging any other way.
Today I was 177.8. That's the highest weight I've been since 2007. I am so disappointed to have backslid so far. I'm determined to lose 2.8 pounds by Monday. I have to think small and manageable. I have to get control of my life again.
Hang in there Penny. You have a lot of stressors right now, and I've seen how much ass you can kick when things are going your way. I know you'll come through this. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteI just bought bras for the first time in ages. I had forgotten that the real reason I haven't done so is because I am now wearing size MOO and didn't think I could find any comfortable, supportive bras in my size. So even though I have been losing weight lately, I still had to buy up from the size I had last. Shopping is usually a humiliating experience for me. Couldn't stop laughing when I saw how big the scrubs I ordered for school were. It just seems ridiculous that they fit me.
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